Happy New Year, y’all!
Did you wake up this morning brimming with hope and optimism? Have you spent the past few days making a list of resolutions, intentions, or goals for the coming year? Did you, too, spend yesterday eating your body weight in buffalo chicken dip and posting your Insta Top Nine all over the social medias?
Well then welcome to 2019, friends. It’s about to get INTENTIONAL up in here.
Oh hey, welcome to the blog, too, by the way. If you know me personally, digitally, or biblically (Hiiii, husband!), then you know I’ve had something up my sleeve for a while now.
This is it. I hope you’re not terribly disappointed that I didn’t join or form an actual cult, but you can always pretend if you want to! Just do what I do, but don’t hold me to any sort of responsibility for your choices or actions! Results definitely not guaranteed!
Here’s how all of this came about:
I spent much of 2018 floundering. I had crippling anxiety, left my long term job in recruitment, dyed my hair purple, started a couple of new ventures in the name of “work-life balance”, and lost both my mojo and motivation somewhere in probably August or September.
I was suffering from a lifetime of compounded feelings of inadequacy, perfectionism, and just not knowing what I wanted to BECOME, or how even to navigate those waters.
At thirty-*cough* years old, I figured I should really have a better handle on things, and yet…
*gestures around at flaming debris of adulthood*
So, as 2018 drew to a close, I knew that much of the world would be riding the grossly-optimistic tide of the “new year, new you” peddlers, and that was as good a time as any for me to start something new, and really commit to finding my way in life.
I have some dear friends who have been urging me to try some Law of Attraction work. If you’ve never read The Secret, the Law of Attraction is the belief that by focusing on positive or negative thoughts, people can bring positive or negative experiences into their life. It’s all very “woo-woo”, but people swear it works.
After spending most of December feeling depressed, sad, and anxious about finances, the future, and everything around me, I decided that honestly, what did I have to lose at this point? Maybe I should give it a shot. So I started to think about my options.
Then I spent Christmas night taking actual shots of pinworm medication with my husband and four-year-old because kids are DIS GUST ING, and it was then that I KNEW I needed a change of mind, attitude, and spirit. And probably a gallon of bleach.
Jen Sincero’s book You are a Badass has been sitting on my shelf for a few months now, and I’ve decided to dive in and give myself over to her brand of Law of Attraction work. Having read The Secret years ago in an attempt to voodoo a baby into my barren womb, I wasn’t interested in reliving that particular variety of woo.
So this is where I start: I’m going to attempt to woo me a NEW me, beginning with the Law of Attraction. Because I’ve been drawn to other woo-ish beliefs in the past, I’m also going to explore all sorts of interesting practices, and apply them to my life.
My hope here is to entertain and educate while learning and growing as a person. If I can gain a better understanding of what makes me tick, what I do well, and how I am best motivated, I believe I can parlay that into a meaningful life going forward.
I hope you’ll stick around to read about my adventures in attempting to magic my way into growing the fuck up, and please feel free to look me up pretty much everywhere you get your social media fix uploaded into your brain cavity.